The Jealousy Of the Lord

Warning: Explicit dysphemisms ahead

Lately, I have been feeling the jealousy of the Lord. He’s been over protective. Kinda like a man of his woman. I’ve felt His breath next to my neck, observing what I’m scrolling on social media. I’ve felt Him fight every idol, every addiction!

I’ve been slipping into sessions of tongues: a few minutes of intimacy! Between work breaks, while in the rest room, while in transit on a motorcycle, under a helmet or mask … a few seconds of fervency turning into eternity. And I sing to Him. And He gives me a song!

Is this what the preacher meant when he invited, ‘Come away with me?’ Is this what he meant when he said ‘O my dove, that art in the clefts of the rock, in the secret places of the stairs, let me see thy countenance, let me hear thy voice; for sweet is thy voice, and thy countenance is comely?’ — or in simpler English,

‘My dove in the clefts of the rock, in the hiding places on the mountainside, show me your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.’

He wants to see my face, and hear my voice. So I am indeed beautiful! I am indeed sweet. You are beautiful. You are sweet to Him. So don’t let the mirror lie! Who told you that you were naked? Who told you that you were uncomely?

It gets too intimate, and yet I seem to have little time, and yet He wants to love on me. It feels like sex. Yes it does! Even if I have never participated in the ritual.

He knows all things … and somehow I get the notion that that is how this feels — perhaps it’s Him letting me know what it’s equivalent to without saying a thing.

But this goes beyond sex as we know it. Perhaps ‘intercourse’ is a subtler euphemism to use in this setting; or the word ‘know’.

Adam knew Eve and had Cain. I have known God but I didn’t have physical offspring! That doesn’t mean I had no offspring at all! A child is called the ‘fruit of the womb.’ I have known God, and I have had other sort of fruit! Fruit such as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, meekness, and self control.

Do you feel you lack some of these?

The secret is more intimacy. More knowing Him.

But as a man loves a woman secretly, there is a version of God He has shown me. It wouldn’t be right for me to say ‘I discovered it.’ He seems to just undress Himself. This is no longer the realm of Moses, where He asked if He could see God’s face. Lovers let the clothes go by default when the emotions heighten! Each sees the other bare!

This is a realm of love, where we meet in the cool of the evening. And if we meet, there is no questioning of how He looks. (Remember lovers in that place see each other bare). I might not have seen His face, but I know Him. I haven’t seen fiery eyes yet. Yet the prophets said He had. They say smoke comes out His nostrils, and thunders and lightnings from His mouth and feet.

Mayhaps … like He chose to show His face to me, He hasn’t decided to show me His fury! But I can feel it. Because His fury hasn’t been against me, it doesn’t mean it’s not nigh unto those who might come off as my enemies.

Even if the New Testament preaches His love, and mercy, His judgement and wrath stand by — to those who might come against you or Him. Did not the couple Ananias and Sapphira succumb to it even if they were in the ‘New Testament?’.

If you are one with Him however — as a couple married who share the same last name, then whoever attacks you, attacks Him.

Vengeance is His, and when it comes down, the earth can swallow three thousand people alive!

So, I have felt His jealousy. I’m careful to avoid provoking His wrath! And as I move, I feel it ready to launch, as body guards would at anyone who strikes at their master, or whoever they are protecting.

That aside, His anger isn’t necessarily towards people; but evil spirits in heavenly places. Unseen forces that may make you back slide and turn from Him. I remember His plagues upon Ramses II (— if the scholars are correct on his name) and it comforts me that His love is too jealous to see me starve, or lack bread, or be forsaken or fall.

It is jealous unto death. It’s not greedy. It is fervent, mad, crazy, unreasonable, like John Wick avenging his dead dog. He Himself has said whoever touches you touches the apple of His eye. You are that precious!

Why it feels like sex, is because it’s exceedingly broad: It contains storge, philia and eros. All the other loves are within it; this His love called Agape. You can compare His love to these other loves, but you can’t compare these other loves to His love.

You can illustrate His love by these other loves, but can’t illustrate other loves by His love: His love is superior and can’t fail while these others have faced inadequacy & a dearth of perfection when marrieds for example divorce … when a parent rapes their child or when a brother kills his own brother.

Song of Solomon further portrays the romance between a man and a woman, and it’s a parable to how His affections play and how we receive or take them for granted. In Isaiah He says even if a breastfeeding mother forsakes her child, God would never you! That means the lower love of storge — the love between a parent and a child (though seemingly impossible) — can fail. That’s why I say we may not compare it to His love, though we can use it to demonstrate His.

His love writes His laws on your heart, so that you won’t feel alright if something grieves Him.

His Spirit has shed this love abroad in your heart. So you find yourself unable to do certain things anymore. Addictions fall off! He helps you please Him. He won’t divorce you like an impatient lover. He sticks with you to the very end. And if you have an ounce of wisdom, you won’t waste His love by running to other lovers. Even if you did, that jealousy proves His stubborness! You’ll stop cheating on Him, because even after you cheat He still doesn’t cheat on you.

Like Gomer, the jealousy of His love and His goodness, lead you to a repentance point of no return. You drop the adultery.

This jealousy of His will KEEP you from falling. And His son will present you blameless, and faultless and spotless to Him on that day.

This jealousy will keep all the hideous claws of sin trying to get to you — farrrrr. And this jealousy will drown you into Him, unto things I can’t describe, and make you drink of powers this age and the age before and the age to come have never seen. And then men will say of you — that their eyes have never seen, nor ears heard, nor minds imagined … the things God would have given you or done with your life!

They are treasures for a life time! Like how Ruth became David’s grandmother, and an ancestor of Jesus’ — signatures she’s eternally proud of, that can never be erased from history.

And now … He wants to do it again! With you!

He is jealous for you — not ‘of you.’

The English setting, when ‘jealous’ gets followed by ‘of’, means someone is resentful of your achievements (thus they have cause to be against you). When ‘jealous’ is followed by ‘for’, it means someone wants you (in your entirety) and could not be willing to have it (or entertain the idea of) sharing you. This causes the protectiveness — the obsession!

He got so obsessed with you that He did everything possible so that He would spend eternity with you — took your place in death so that you’d not taste it even!

He is jealous for you

He is jealous for you

He is jealous for you

And whether you are jealous for Him or not, His position will remain firm and etched in stone: forever obsessed about you. Forever pursuing you;

No wonder John felt all this, and wrote of himself as the disciple whom Jesus loved! But not every other disciple wrote that of themselves. Let’s not think our parents’ intimacy or our pastors’ intimacy with God will substitute for ours!

No!

This is highly individualistic! A man undresses before a woman where no one can see them! When someone walks in on them, there’s usually a scuffle of each trying to cover their nakedness. They can’t get intimate with a third witness watching

This is the cost of the secret place. God won’t unnecessarily undress for you in public — in a congregation. Those who have some sort of fruit with Him have already had multiple sessions to which you were not witness to. All this to say that others won’t get intimate with God on your behalf. And don’t think you’ll share their fruit — as though to call their offspring with God your own offspring!

Your husband may be the pastor of a mega global church, but being married to him won’t automatically guarantee the same level of fruit!

You must conceive your own! You must go in on your own! For this reason He tore the veil so that you’d lie with Him. You must make the time!

But then again … a warning! Even if He is jealous for you, you must be sensitive and responsive. Sensitive not to keep the door open while you see Him. (Remember lovers undress when doors are very tight shut) Sensitive not to take His vulnerability and nakedness for granted. Sensitive not to delay Him when He waits for you.

The woman in Song of Solomon was too lazy to open the door for her betrothed. He knocked and knocked. And when she finally got comfortable to unlock the latch, he had gone.

Being responsive is for those who might think His love will be available forever. For anyone rebellious: meaning thinking they have tomorrow to receive His love, if they die now, things may be a little different. They’ll see His fury when they awake. The fiery eyes and a sword coming out from His mouth — the facw He didn’t show me.

He loved the world that He sent His son, to die for us so that whoever believes on Him may not perish but have everlasting life. This perishing commences if one dies, and they heard His invitation — His pursuit many atimes but they stubbornly turned it and Him down. If you know anyone like that tell them to beware!

Even a lover can’t pursue a dead person! This isn’t Shakespeare’s Romeo & Juliet! They usually find another alive girl they can know. The only miracle that can save is if a resurrection happens to reverse all this.

But other than that, if you have known Him, yield at once when you feel that urge to pray. Yield at once when you feel that urge to sing. It’s you responding to His jealousy — which will bring into effect a thousand benefits!

Continue to pray for those still stubborn, that their hearts will turn from stone to flesh, and that the jealousy of the Lord will never be against them after He did all He could to pursue, but they never responded.

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Song of Solomon‬ ‭8‬:‭6‬ Set me as a seal upon your heart, As a seal upon your arm; For love is as strong as death, Jealousy as cruel as the grave; Its flames are flames of fire, A most vehement flame.

Exodus‬ ‭34‬:‭14‬ For you shall worship no other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God
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Zechariah 8:2 Thus saith the LORD of hosts; I was jealous for Zion with great jealousy, and I was jealous for her with great fury.